ನೆನಪು ಮರೆವುಗಳ ನೆಪ

ನಿನ್ನ ಮರೆಯಲು
ಯತ್ನಿಸೆ
ಆ ಪ್ರಯತ್ನದಲ್ಲೇ
ನಿನ್ನ ನೆನಪು
ಕಾಡುತ್ತೆ..

ನಿನ್ನ ನೆನಯೋದು
ಬೇಡವೆಣಿಸೆ
ಮರೆತಿದ್ದರಲ್ಲವೆ
ನೆನಪು
ಬೇಡವೆನುವ ಮಾತು?

ಒಂದಲ್ಲ ಒಂದು
ನೆಪ
ನಿನ್ನ ಗುಂಗಿಗೆ!

ಸುಳ್ಳಿನ ಸರಮಾಲೆ

ಒಂದೇ
ಒಂದು ಸುಳ್ಳು
ಸಣ್ಣ ಸುಳ್ಳು
ಬಣ್ಣವಿರದ ಸುಳ್ಳು

ಹಸಿ ಸುಳ್ಳೋ
ಬಿಸಿ ಸುಳ್ಳೋ
ಬಿಳಿ ಸುಳ್ಳೋ
ಎಳೆ ಸುಳ್ಳೋ

ಒಂದು
ಸುಳ್ಳು ಮಚ್ಚಲು
ಮತ್ತೊಂದು,
ಮಗದೊಂದು

ಸುಳ್ಳುಗಳ
ಸಾಲುಗಳು
ಸಾಲುಗಳ
ಮಾಲೆಗಳು

ಸುಳ್ಳಿನ ಸರದಾರನಾಗಲು
ಸಾಕು ಒಂದೇ
ಒಂದು ಸುಳ್ಳು
ಸಣ್ಣ ಸುಳ್ಳು!

ಆಧುನೀಕರಣ

ಖಾಲಿ ಕೊಡಕ್ಕೆ
ನಿಂತಲ್ಲಿ ನಿಲ್ಲಲಾಗದೆ
ಉರುಡುತ್ತಾ
ಸದ್ದು ಮಾಡೋ
ಬಯಕೆ

ಅರ್ಧ ತುಂಬಿದ
ಕೊಡವೋ
ಅರೆಬೆಂದ ಜ್ಞಾನ
ತುಳುಕಿಸುತ್ತಾ
ಪ್ರದರ್ಶಸೊ
ಆಸೆ

ತುಂಬಿದ ಕೊಡ
ಯಾರಿಗಾದರು
ನೀರಿನ ಅಗತ್ಯವೇ
ಎಂಬ ನಿರೀಕ್ಷಣೆ..
ನೀರುಣಿಸಿ
ಮತ್ತಷ್ಟು ನೀರ
ತುಂಬಿಕೊಳ್ಳೊ
ಉತ್ಕಟ ಇಚ್ಛೆ

ಈಗ ಕೊಡವಿದ್ದರೆ
ತಾನೆ
ಸದ್ದು ಮಾಡಕ್ಕೆ
ತುಳುಕಕ್ಕೆ
ತುಳುಕದಕ್ಕೆ

ಈಗೇನಿದ್ದರೂ ನಲ್ಲಿ
ಬೇಕಿದ್ದಲ್ಲಿ
ನಲ್ಲಿ ತಿರುಗಿಸಿ
ಬೇಕಾದಷ್ಟ ನೀರ
ಹಿಡಿದು
ಬಾಯಿ ಬಂದ್
ಮಾಡಿದರಾಯಿತು

ಹೆಚ್ಚೆಂದರೆ
ಆಗಾಗ
ನಲ್ಲಿಯಿಂದ
ತೊಟ್ಟಿಕ್ಕೊ ನೀರು
ತೊಟ ತೊಟ ಸದ್ದು!

ಅಸ್ತಿತ್ವ

ತಾನೇ ಸರಿ
ತನ್ನದೇ ಖರೆ
ಎನುವ ಜನ
ತಮಗೆ ತಾವೇ
ಸಾಬೀತು ಪಡಿಸುವ
ನಿರಂತರ ಪ್ರಯತ್ನವೇ?

ಕಣ್ಣಾ ಮುಚ್ಚಾಲೆ

ಬೆಟ್ಟಗಳ ಸಾಲುಗಳು
ಸಾಲುಗಳಾಚೆ ಸಾಲುಗಳು
ಆಚೆಯ ಹಿಂದೆ ಸಾಲುಗಳು
ಪ್ರತಿ ರಾತ್ರಿಯೂ ಇವರುಗಳ
ಮಧ್ಯೆ ಕಳೆದು ಹೋಗೋ
ರವಿಯೇ
ಇರುಳು ಕಾಡುವ
ಕತ್ತಲಲಿ
ನಿನ್ನನೆಲ್ಲಂತ ಹುಡುಕಲಿ
ಹೇಗಂತ ನಂಬಲಿ?

ಕೊಡಗಿನ ರಾಜಾ ಸೀಟ್ ಅಲ್ಲಿ ಕೂತು ಬರೆದದ್ದು

ಹುಡು-ಕಾಟ

ಹುಡುಕುತ್ತಿರುವೆ
ಅದೇನನ್ನೋ
ಏನೆಂಬುದು
ನನ್ನ ಅರಿವಿಗಿನ್ನೂ
ಬಂದಿಲ್ಲ

ಪ್ರಶ್ನಿಸಿಕೊಳ್ಳುವೆ
ಏನ ಹುಡುಕುತ್ತಿರುವೆ?
ಪ್ರೀತಿಯೇ, ಸ್ನೇಹವೇ
ಭಯ ಹೊಡೆದೋಡಿಸುವ
ಭದ್ರತೆಯೇ

ಮನ ತಣಿಸುವ
ನುಡಿಯೇ
ತನು ಬಯಸುವ
ಸ್ಪರ್ಶವೇ

ನೆಮ್ಮದಿಯ
ನಿಟ್ಟುಸಿರೇ
ತೃಪ್ತಿಯ
ಕಿರು ನಗೆಯೇ

ಏಕಾಂತವೇ
ಒಂಟಿತನವ
ಓಡಿಸುವ
ಆಪ್ತತೆಯೇ

ಧನವೇ
ಕನಕವೇ
ಯಶಸ್ಸೇ
ಹೆಸರೇ

ಸಾಧನೆಯ
ಹಾದಿಯೇ
ಆಧ್ಯಾತ್ಮದ
ಮಾರ್ಗವೇ

ಅಥವಾ
ಅರ್ಥವಿಲ್ಲದ
ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆಗಳೇ
ಉತ್ತರವಿಲ್ಲದ
ಪ್ರಶ್ನೆಗಳೇ

ನಿಲ್ಲದ ಈ
ಹುಡುಕಾಟ
ಬಲು ಕಾಟ

Book Selling to Book Selling

Closing my day with a contented feeling. Most of my days in the recent years are not like this for what so ever reason. There are 2 reasons why I am contented today. One is that my 5th cold call for selling my books to a book store has been converted to an actual sales. I was successful to sell my books to a well known kannada book stall. I published my first book 'Ajji Punch Tantra', a light read in Kannada 3 months back. As my publisher is naïve, I was involved in each stage of publishing and now in marketing solving problem at each level and learning on the go. Second reason is that one of senior writer in Kannada, who has become a close friend and guide was amazed at my ability to market my book in various ways in different places in a quick pace. He appreciated me for my skills in marketing and my perseverance to learn the tricks of the trading. Bingo! Its indeed something to feel good about.

I was looking back seeing last 3+ months of my journey after my book release. It just stuck me that how same tasks when done for different reasons has exactly opposite effect. Let me share my kahani of Book selling to Book selling.

Every time I go thru a crisis in my life, I keep telling myself that this is the most difficult phase in life. Once the phase is past, I look back to see that, it was not that bad. But history repeats.

Those were the days when I was struggling to get a descent job. As soon as I finished Engineering, I was still in Hassan, a small town in Karnataka where I studied Engineering. I applied for a transformer repair company and I got the job. Salary was Rs. 3500/-. I was happy and joined the company. Money didn't bother me but the Boss did! Initially I didn't notice that the office is full of women employees. My colleagues used to gossip about the boss or I thought it was a gossip. Slowly I realized that my 60 year old boss was a philanderer and the gossips were facts! It was one and a half months by the time I realized and I quit my job. I started applying to various IT companies. It was year 2002 and IT industry was down and people without computer science background were not getting shortlisted. I was in that category. Even if I got call from 1 or 2 companies, I would not clear the written test. I even remember that I and one of my close friend literally went to all the companies in Electronics city and dropped the hard copy of the resumes at the security! Those were the days of beginning of internet era.

 My job hunt continued. I switched jobs - 3 months in kavika and few days in kptcl as a consultant for Rs. 1200/- . I was desperate for the job. I was ready to pick up any kind of job. I just wanted to be independent. I used to scan thru the classifieds. I came across an advertisement for selling books. I decided to attend the interview. I went to their Gandhi bazar office(The 5th cold call made to the bookstall is exactly below this office). They made me wait for 3 good hours. Finally they called me for interview and the Managing Director told me that I was made to wait to check my patience! First round was a patience test and my desperation had made me clear that level.

Interview was fine. They said they would pay me 3k salary and every book I sell will fetch me Rs. 50. He said everyday you can sell around 10 books. I quickly did a math and even if I worked 20 days a month I would earn more than 10k and was happy. They offered me a job without any offer letter and I accepted it!!

Day 1 started. All employees would gather in the office by 10. There would be a talent show for 30-45 minutes. People can sing, dance, show any talent. I was thrilled. Some of them used to share their experience on how they made the customer buy the book. Inspiring stories for the state of mind I was in!

They make groups. There would be a lead. Under them sub leads. All junior and fresher's report to sub leads. Sub lead is their father. Lead is their grandpa. Grandpa and father talks very sweetly towards their kids. They call themself a family. I was very touched by the concept.
The real touch happened when the so called loving  father & grandpa asked me to carry a bag of 25 big Oxford encyclopedia. My head buzzed looking at the mammoth bag. I could not complain as I had chosen it. I carried my bag and my group mates carried theirs. With our beloved father we headed to shivaji nagar. In shivaji nagar bus stand, father decided who will go which direction. We are to report back at the same place at 5.

All of us carried big bags and started towards the designated directions. I was suppose to shadow a person for 'On the job training!'.

What they did was, choose a road. If it is residential road, go to one house after other. Knock the door. 90% nobody opened the door. People in the house, peek thru the window first. Some shut the window as soon as they know we are sales girls/boys. Some scold saying 'you jobless people come and disturb our sleep'. Some show the courtesy to ask 'what are you selling' to create a hope and then not interested and slam the door. My first days statistics told me that there is 10% who will listen to you and 2% could be genuine buyers.

Second day I was on my own. With lot of determination, we left to another area. It was a commercial area. I visited each shop to do a cold call of the book. Unlike residential people, men in the shops showed courtesy to listen to me with all possible looks in all possible places on my body. But none were prospective buyers. I didn't sell any book that day also.

I was very sad that my calculation of 10*50 for that day was at loss. We were back to office in the evening by 7. There would be a celebration for people who sold books and cheering for people who could not. They cheered me saying next day I will sell a book.

This continued for the whole week. If some one is interested in the book, they don't have cash. They would ask "can you please come tomorrow , I will surely buy this book". Some would say "I have to get cash, can you please come after 2-3 hours?". When I wait and go to check that door is locked and no one at home. Only one lady among many people kept her promise to buy the book.

We had to lie to people that we are studying and book selling is a project. We had to convince people to buy the book. Some times my colleagues used to beg people to buy the books. In 2 weeks time I think I could sell 3-4 books. There was a celebration with singing and dancing by my colleagues , father and grandpa on the day when I sold the first book!

One day father decided to take the kids to Devasandra. We all went and started to take the assigned roads. I saw some one familiar near a juice shop which was some 10 steps ahead I . I stopped and kept the heavy bag down to think. I saw another face, very familiar. And one more and it stuck me that they were my juniors from college. I was wondering what they are doing there instead of being at college in Hassan. I thought of meeting  them to ask and picked up the bag again.
Suddenly a thought and a painful feeling crossed my mind. What am I doing? If I go talk to them to know why they are here, I will have to explain why I am here! What shall I say? I am here to sell books? Going  door to door? After completing my Engineering? No, I was ashamed. I was not ready to show my face to them. I was not ready to tell them that I am selling books on the road.
I decided to take another road. I walked briskly to another road. I was upset, worried and a sense of humiliation. I was  unable to understand why I was upset. Few steps in the next road I saw 3-4 juniors of mine again. Oh no. They are coming in my direction. As I was famous in my college for being a sports star, most of my college mates knew me. There was no escape. If they see me, they would recognize me.  They would go back to college and tell everybody I sell books on the streets. I turned to opposite direction just to let them pass. I didn't do any sales that day.

Coming back to office, my grandpa called me and said I have been deputed to Goa. I will have to leave the next day. I said sorry, I cannot. They forced me. They told me how my career would evolve fast if I go to Goa. How I can become a mother!! And a grandma in a short span of time! I neither had any interest left to be a kid there nor was ready to explore what kind of motherhood it would be in Goa. I left office on my scooty. All I could see was my juniors and me trying to run away from them!

Last one month experience has been very different from the above, though I am almost doing the same job! In one of the shop, I was waiting for the shop owner in the queue. A person standing before me in the queue looked at the books in my hand and picked up one. Looking at the title, she exclaimed 'nice title' in an admiring tone. I was watching her expressionless. She turned the book and started staring at me. I didn't know why she was staring. She again looked at the book and smiled and said, 'you are the author!'. She had turned out the book to read about the author and was surprised to see the author in front of her.

Yes, I am back doing cold calls to sell books and I am not running away from anyone! I am no more ashamed to sell the books but indeed proud about it.

Book Selling to Book Selling - it has been an amazing journey! Be it shameful or pride, I have lived every moment of it.

P.S: I got to know later that my juniors were at an institute in Devasandra to finish there incomplete project for the semester.

ಧಾರಾಳಿ

ರಾತ್ರಿ ಟ್ರಾಫಿ಼ಕ್ ಸಿಗ್ನಲ್ನ
ಹಳದಿ ದೀಪ
ಪುಕ ಪುಕವೆಂದಂತೆ
ನಿನ್ನ ಮನಸ್ಸು..
ಗಾಡಿ ನಿಲ್ಲಿಸಬೇಕೋ
ಮುನ್ನಡೆಸಬೇಕೋ
ನಿರ್ಧಾರ ನನಗೇ
ಬಿಟ್ಟಿದ್ದು

Gambler! O ya.. I am!

Gambling!
Ah! What a high you bring in
What a low you have pushed me to!

I gamble gambling!
I gambled my studies
Bunking classes
N biking around places

I gamble gambling!
I gambled my jobs
Hopping around
Quitting and finding new ones

I gamble gambling!
I gambled love
Going behind it
And catching the one came after me

I gamble gambling
I gambled money
Buying and selling
Materialistic stuff

I gamble gambling!
I gambled my time
Lost hours
Doing useless things

I gamble gambling!
I gamble life
Daring to touch unknown
Courageous to take an unpredictable deep dive 

I gamble gambling!
I gambled my studies
Learned the life skills
Over missing theories

I gamble gambling!
I gambled my jobs
Learned new skills
Over the comfort of mundane work

I gamble gambling!
I gambled love
Learned to compromise and sacrifice
Over enjoying pampering

I gamble gambling!
I gambled money
Gave up making money
To experience and enjoy life

I gamble gambling!
I gambled my time
Lost hours
To maturity

I gamble gambling!
I gamble life now
To explore into the unknown
Expecting nothing but new experience!

ತರಾವರಿ ಈ ಬದುಕು

ಬದುಕು ದುಸ್ತರವೆನಿಸೆ
ಮನದ ಬೆನ್ನು ಸವರಿ
ನುಡಿವೆ
ಹೆದರುವೆ ಏಕೆ
ಬದುಕೇನು ಸ್ಥಿರವೆ?

ತರವೋ ದುಸ್ತರವೋ
ಜೀವಿಸಿಬಿಡೊಮ್ಮೆ
ಇರುವುದೊಂದೇ ಬದುಕು
ಈ ಜನುಮಕೆ..

ಕಟ್ಟಿಡು ಚಿಂತೆ
ಕಂತೆಗಳ
ಮರು ಜನುಮಕೆ

ಕಂಡ ದಾರಿಯಲಿ
ಸಾಗುತ್ತಾ
ಕಾಣದ ದಾರಿಗಾಗಿ
ಹುಡುಕಾಡುತ್ತಾ
ನೇರ ದಾರಿಯ
ಕಬಳಿಸುತ್ತಾ
ಅಡ್ಡ ದಾರಿಯ
ಅನುಭವಿಸುತ್ತಾರೆ
ನಿಲ್ಲದಂತೆ ನಡೆ

ಬದುಕು ಅನಿವಾರ್ಯ
ಉಸಿರಿರುವವರೆಗೂ...
ಜಯಿಸೇ ಬಿಡುವ
ಈ ಬದುಕ
ಸಾವಿನಾಚೆ ಏನುಂಟೋ
ಅರಿತವರಾರು!

Celebrating failures

Failures..
Part of my life!

Failures..
I accept & embrace them
They are the stepping
Stones for my success

Failures..
I do not run away from them
They teach me lessons
Make me mature

Failures..
I give myself chance to make mistakes
I experience from them
And learn better ways

Failures..
Made me realize my weakness
Have made me stronger
And quieter .

Failure..
To love..
Failure..
To be loved..

Failure..
Against winning..
Failure..
In wining..

Failure..
To be a priority..
Failure..
Prioritizing..

Failures..
I accept & embrace them
They are part of my life
They enrich me n engage me towards success!

ನಾಟಕ

ತುಣುಕು ಪ್ರೀತಿಗಾಗಿ
ಇಣುಕುವ ಮನವೇ
ಕೆಣಕುವೆ
ಅಣಕಿಸುವೆ
ಎಲ್ಲಾ, ತುಣುಕು ಪ್ರೀತಿಗಾಗಿ!

Scotched

Yes your highness!

No one can beat you
No one can replace you
No one can ever give the same feeling
As you can give!!

Yes your highness!!

Worries - deleted from the dictionary
Courage - added in every page
The elite feeling
And a sense of flying up in the air!

Yes your highness!!

Mind talks the heart
Heart does not listen to mind
And she rules!!
Actions and words in sync

Yes your highness!!

Truth flows easily
Honesty gate opens
You make us talk
Straight and to the point

Yes your highness!!

I don't like you
But I like the feeling you bring in!
There is no discrimination
Be it vodka, whisky or wine

Yes your highness!!

Mind listens to heart..
But body does not!
It is not ready to just walk
But ready to fly!!

Yes your highness!!

Heaven is down on earth!
Binded in a glass or mug!
Nothing to fear
No need to worry
Concentrate on the highness!

Yes your highness!!

I don't like you..
But I love the feeling!!

Wait..here it comes

Waiting never ends..
Wait..
Waiting never ends..

I wait in the night
For sun to rise
I wait in the day
For moon to shine

I wait for the
Night to fall
I wait for the
stars to twinkle

I wait for the
Day to begin
I wait for the
Sun rays to wake me

I wait for the spring
I wait for the fall
I wait for the sunshine
I wait for the rain

I wait for the
Good days to come
I wait for the
Bad days to pass

I wait for the happiness
I wait for the peace
I wait for the pain to vanish
I wait for everything with patience

I ask myself
Am I missing living
In this waiting business?

I ask myself
Did I miss anything
In this waiting business?

I wait for the answers..

Waiting never ends..
We wait.. Till the last breath
Waiting never ends..

Fear of the Known & the Unknown

I know!
It is this way
And I know
I cannot change this

The frustration
Of the known
Inability to change
The known

Saddens me
Weakens me
Makes me angry
& kills me every day!

On the other side
The unknown!
What would happen?
& what would not?

Anxiety about
The unknown
Fear about
The unknown

Permutations
& combinations
Of the unknown
Haunt me!

It limits me
To take risk
It holds me back
From exploring..

The fear of the known & the unknown..
Either ways, they hinder & limit me ..
The fear...

Love means

It is a feeling of peace
Being at ease
Nothing to prove
No need to approve
 

Sense of assurance
I am there with you
Come what may
 

Sometimes happy to
Do things the way you like
Sometimes demanding things
The way I want
 

Its about giving some days
Receiving the other days
It's calmness within
Sense of fulfillment
 

Feeling good about
Being dependent
Wanting to be
The dependable
 

It's not just sense of highness
Or increase in heart beat
It's a journey together
No matter what happens the future
 

The trust, the faith
Having between each other
Care and affection
For one another
 

It's about wanting
to see you smile
Suffering the pain
You feel
 

It's becoming vulnerable
Giving you the right to hurt me
It's about fighting
It's about arguing
 

It's showing anger
With a cuddle
It's hittings
Followed by hugs
 

Yet

It's a feeling of peace
Being at ease
Feeling wanted
Feeling secured..

Shadows of the past

Shadows..
They follow me
Where ever I go
Most of the day

They haunt me
Disturbing my privacy
They are attached
Smothering me

But, o sun, the lord
Aren't you the culprit?
Making me the victim
For all your hide n seek?

Again, is there a day
Without you?
Bright days and
A feeling of life without you?

And there Comes
The clouds, once in a while
Giving a break
From my shadows

Followed by rain
As if to wash away
The dark contour
Feeling of nothing happened

Yet, I yearn for you
O my sun
For the sunshine you bring
And the warmth
No one else can give

there are shadows of
Trees and houses
Giving the coolness
And a relaxing feeling

Shadows that bring
Joy and pleasure
Shadows that a break
To scorching sunlight

Shadows that
Bring relief
Shadows which
Makes me creative

They are part of me
And I am part of them
There is no them without me
And I am here because of them what I am today!

Shadows..
Shadows..

The Journey Tread!

I stand here on the road
And look back and watch
The path I have walked

I see the shining asphalted road
With the beautiful curves
Running far and far
Touching the horizon

Beyond a point
There is no visibility
I could recollect the potholes
And the bumpy rides

Ah! Those mud roads
And the slush which
Slowed me down during rains

Some parts, where there
Was no road
And my wanderings
In search of one

I have walked thru these roads with
Bright and sunny days
Rainy and thunderstorm ones
Chill winds and biting cold

Yes, I have come a long way
Have dropped my fears on the way
Picked up courage from side roads
Confident & learned to tread the journey

I explore and experience
The roads and the unpredictability
Enjoy the journey
Not bothering about destination

Learn on the roads
Enjoy the weather
Experience the journey
And tread tread tread..

Freedom! And its not always free

I have been asking
Myself, many times
All these years..
With whom I am in love with?

Is it my first crush
When I was in 5th class?
Or the one friend of my brother's
Whom I secretly admired?

Is it the one in my college
Who always challenged me?
Or the one who admired me
For my witty talks?

Is it the ex colleague?
Or the y - I mean the current?
Ah! My answers not convincing
Me enough..

O yes, he is the one
From last many years - my work
But, I like my work
And I don't love it though..

Then what is it
I am in love with?
I close my eyes and think n ponder..
I see a bird flying its heart's content!

De-feeted

Every defeat, makes me Strong
It makes more independent
More self reliant

Every defeat makes me strong
It teaches new things
It shows new ways

Every defeat makes me strong
It makes me know the self better
It shields me from next time shatter

Every defeat makes me strong
It reduces my expectations
It helps me become a better person

Unstoppable me!!

I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me
I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me

You stop me with boulders
I seep in, creep in
And finally pass thru it
It never stops me from flowing

You bind me with a dam
I would boil with anger
Hate to be restricted
You let me out, I show my power

You irritate me with heat
I vanish from this earth
I come back to you
When you really need me

When I come back
I soothe you with coolness
Rain you with happiness
Bring in peace and growth

I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me
Try stopping me
I am just unstoppable!!

Milton lake thru my eyes

I sit there by the lake
At the early morning hours
Watching reflections of
Trees, houses and light

Lake is still n undisturbed.
She has calmed down from the
Turbulence of the wind, fishes n ducks

She has buried down her feelings
Deep down within
Light wind blurs the reflection
Reflecting the past

There is no sadness, no anxiety
No crying, no wining
Just the stillness,
And the unshakable faith..

Night has to last
Day has to creep in..
Sun to rise
And again lake to shine.

Sleeplessness

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Turning & tossing
But no sleep at nights

I try to chase him
But he runs away
I try to ooze into him
He slips away!

Sleepless night
Sleepless night!

He is so bloody sleepy
Does not embrace me
He is so stubborn
Not following me

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights

I need you so badly
I want you so madly
Oh my Sleep Prince
Come embrace me!

Am sick and tired
Without your company
Have mercy on me
Come embrace me!

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Turning & tossing
But no sleep at nights

Waiting for you
O my Sleep Prince
Come embrace me
And put me to sleep..
Put me to sleep..

Last one year Xperience!

I was in pursuit of love, happiness and peace whole lot of last year. People and situations have intrigued me my purpose of life like never before. In this pursuit, I never found what ever I was looking for. But hell Lotta an experience and realization! Here is the list I can think of.

1. If you deserve something, eventually it will reach you. Don't chase anything or anyone.
2. Life is harder for people who follow morals.
3. Expectation - kills you.
4. There is factually not much difference between yesterday and today, last week and this week, last year and this year. But it is your mind, which actually makes the difference!
5. Peace is within you. The more you understand yourself, more peaceful you are.
6. Understand the limitations of your loved ones. Support them in such a way that they never feel limited!
7. Use your relationships as strength and not as weakness.
8.  Learn to forgive - yourself and others. It makes you feel lighter.
9. Value people who give their time, love and care.
10. Life is not a race. Don't run or run away. Experience the life!
11. Enjoy what you already have.
12. Love life and live life to fullest.