Shadows of the past

Shadows..
They follow me
Where ever I go
Most of the day

They haunt me
Disturbing my privacy
They are attached
Smothering me

But, o sun, the lord
Aren't you the culprit?
Making me the victim
For all your hide n seek?

Again, is there a day
Without you?
Bright days and
A feeling of life without you?

And there Comes
The clouds, once in a while
Giving a break
From my shadows

Followed by rain
As if to wash away
The dark contour
Feeling of nothing happened

Yet, I yearn for you
O my sun
For the sunshine you bring
And the warmth
No one else can give

there are shadows of
Trees and houses
Giving the coolness
And a relaxing feeling

Shadows that bring
Joy and pleasure
Shadows that a break
To scorching sunlight

Shadows that
Bring relief
Shadows which
Makes me creative

They are part of me
And I am part of them
There is no them without me
And I am here because of them what I am today!

Shadows..
Shadows..

The Journey Tread!

I stand here on the road
And look back and watch
The path I have walked

I see the shining asphalted road
With the beautiful curves
Running far and far
Touching the horizon

Beyond a point
There is no visibility
I could recollect the potholes
And the bumpy rides

Ah! Those mud roads
And the slush which
Slowed me down during rains

Some parts, where there
Was no road
And my wanderings
In search of one

I have walked thru these roads with
Bright and sunny days
Rainy and thunderstorm ones
Chill winds and biting cold

Yes, I have come a long way
Have dropped my fears on the way
Picked up courage from side roads
Confident & learned to tread the journey

I explore and experience
The roads and the unpredictability
Enjoy the journey
Not bothering about destination

Learn on the roads
Enjoy the weather
Experience the journey
And tread tread tread..

Freedom! And its not always free

I have been asking
Myself, many times
All these years..
With whom I am in love with?

Is it my first crush
When I was in 5th class?
Or the one friend of my brother's
Whom I secretly admired?

Is it the one in my college
Who always challenged me?
Or the one who admired me
For my witty talks?

Is it the ex colleague?
Or the y - I mean the current?
Ah! My answers not convincing
Me enough..

O yes, he is the one
From last many years - my work
But, I like my work
And I don't love it though..

Then what is it
I am in love with?
I close my eyes and think n ponder..
I see a bird flying its heart's content!

De-feeted

Every defeat, makes me Strong
It makes more independent
More self reliant

Every defeat makes me strong
It teaches new things
It shows new ways

Every defeat makes me strong
It makes me know the self better
It shields me from next time shatter

Every defeat makes me strong
It reduces my expectations
It helps me become a better person

Unstoppable me!!

I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me
I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me

You stop me with boulders
I seep in, creep in
And finally pass thru it
It never stops me from flowing

You bind me with a dam
I would boil with anger
Hate to be restricted
You let me out, I show my power

You irritate me with heat
I vanish from this earth
I come back to you
When you really need me

When I come back
I soothe you with coolness
Rain you with happiness
Bring in peace and growth

I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me
Try stopping me
I am just unstoppable!!

Milton lake thru my eyes

I sit there by the lake
At the early morning hours
Watching reflections of
Trees, houses and light

Lake is still n undisturbed.
She has calmed down from the
Turbulence of the wind, fishes n ducks

She has buried down her feelings
Deep down within
Light wind blurs the reflection
Reflecting the past

There is no sadness, no anxiety
No crying, no wining
Just the stillness,
And the unshakable faith..

Night has to last
Day has to creep in..
Sun to rise
And again lake to shine.

Sleeplessness

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Turning & tossing
But no sleep at nights

I try to chase him
But he runs away
I try to ooze into him
He slips away!

Sleepless night
Sleepless night!

He is so bloody sleepy
Does not embrace me
He is so stubborn
Not following me

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights

I need you so badly
I want you so madly
Oh my Sleep Prince
Come embrace me!

Am sick and tired
Without your company
Have mercy on me
Come embrace me!

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Turning & tossing
But no sleep at nights

Waiting for you
O my Sleep Prince
Come embrace me
And put me to sleep..
Put me to sleep..