Wait..here it comes

Waiting never ends..
Wait..
Waiting never ends..

I wait in the night
For sun to rise
I wait in the day
For moon to shine

I wait for the
Night to fall
I wait for the
stars to twinkle

I wait for the
Day to begin
I wait for the
Sun rays to wake me

I wait for the spring
I wait for the fall
I wait for the sunshine
I wait for the rain

I wait for the
Good days to come
I wait for the
Bad days to pass

I wait for the happiness
I wait for the peace
I wait for the pain to vanish
I wait for everything with patience

I ask myself
Am I missing living
In this waiting business?

I ask myself
Did I miss anything
In this waiting business?

I wait for the answers..

Waiting never ends..
We wait.. Till the last breath
Waiting never ends..

Fear of the Known & the Unknown

I know!
It is this way
And I know
I cannot change this

The frustration
Of the known
Inability to change
The known

Saddens me
Weakens me
Makes me angry
& kills me every day!

On the other side
The unknown!
What would happen?
& what would not?

Anxiety about
The unknown
Fear about
The unknown

Permutations
& combinations
Of the unknown
Haunt me!

It limits me
To take risk
It holds me back
From exploring..

The fear of the known & the unknown..
Either ways, they hinder & limit me ..
The fear...

Love means

It is a feeling of peace
Being at ease
Nothing to prove
No need to approve
 

Sense of assurance
I am there with you
Come what may
 

Sometimes happy to
Do things the way you like
Sometimes demanding things
The way I want
 

Its about giving some days
Receiving the other days
It's calmness within
Sense of fulfillment
 

Feeling good about
Being dependent
Wanting to be
The dependable
 

It's not just sense of highness
Or increase in heart beat
It's a journey together
No matter what happens the future
 

The trust, the faith
Having between each other
Care and affection
For one another
 

It's about wanting
to see you smile
Suffering the pain
You feel
 

It's becoming vulnerable
Giving you the right to hurt me
It's about fighting
It's about arguing
 

It's showing anger
With a cuddle
It's hittings
Followed by hugs
 

Yet

It's a feeling of peace
Being at ease
Feeling wanted
Feeling secured..

Shadows of the past

Shadows..
They follow me
Where ever I go
Most of the day

They haunt me
Disturbing my privacy
They are attached
Smothering me

But, o sun, the lord
Aren't you the culprit?
Making me the victim
For all your hide n seek?

Again, is there a day
Without you?
Bright days and
A feeling of life without you?

And there Comes
The clouds, once in a while
Giving a break
From my shadows

Followed by rain
As if to wash away
The dark contour
Feeling of nothing happened

Yet, I yearn for you
O my sun
For the sunshine you bring
And the warmth
No one else can give

there are shadows of
Trees and houses
Giving the coolness
And a relaxing feeling

Shadows that bring
Joy and pleasure
Shadows that a break
To scorching sunlight

Shadows that
Bring relief
Shadows which
Makes me creative

They are part of me
And I am part of them
There is no them without me
And I am here because of them what I am today!

Shadows..
Shadows..

The Journey Tread!

I stand here on the road
And look back and watch
The path I have walked

I see the shining asphalted road
With the beautiful curves
Running far and far
Touching the horizon

Beyond a point
There is no visibility
I could recollect the potholes
And the bumpy rides

Ah! Those mud roads
And the slush which
Slowed me down during rains

Some parts, where there
Was no road
And my wanderings
In search of one

I have walked thru these roads with
Bright and sunny days
Rainy and thunderstorm ones
Chill winds and biting cold

Yes, I have come a long way
Have dropped my fears on the way
Picked up courage from side roads
Confident & learned to tread the journey

I explore and experience
The roads and the unpredictability
Enjoy the journey
Not bothering about destination

Learn on the roads
Enjoy the weather
Experience the journey
And tread tread tread..

Freedom! And its not always free

I have been asking
Myself, many times
All these years..
With whom I am in love with?

Is it my first crush
When I was in 5th class?
Or the one friend of my brother's
Whom I secretly admired?

Is it the one in my college
Who always challenged me?
Or the one who admired me
For my witty talks?

Is it the ex colleague?
Or the y - I mean the current?
Ah! My answers not convincing
Me enough..

O yes, he is the one
From last many years - my work
But, I like my work
And I don't love it though..

Then what is it
I am in love with?
I close my eyes and think n ponder..
I see a bird flying its heart's content!

De-feeted

Every defeat, makes me Strong
It makes more independent
More self reliant

Every defeat makes me strong
It teaches new things
It shows new ways

Every defeat makes me strong
It makes me know the self better
It shields me from next time shatter

Every defeat makes me strong
It reduces my expectations
It helps me become a better person