Freedom! And its not always free

I have been asking
Myself, many times
All these years..
With whom I am in love with?

Is it my first crush
When I was in 5th class?
Or the one friend of my brother's
Whom I secretly admired?

Is it the one in my college
Who always challenged me?
Or the one who admired me
For my witty talks?

Is it the ex colleague?
Or the y - I mean the current?
Ah! My answers not convincing
Me enough..

O yes, he is the one
From last many years - my work
But, I like my work
And I don't love it though..

Then what is it
I am in love with?
I close my eyes and think n ponder..
I see a bird flying its heart's content!

De-feeted

Every defeat, makes me Strong
It makes more independent
More self reliant

Every defeat makes me strong
It teaches new things
It shows new ways

Every defeat makes me strong
It makes me know the self better
It shields me from next time shatter

Every defeat makes me strong
It reduces my expectations
It helps me become a better person

Unstoppable me!!

I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me
I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me

You stop me with boulders
I seep in, creep in
And finally pass thru it
It never stops me from flowing

You bind me with a dam
I would boil with anger
Hate to be restricted
You let me out, I show my power

You irritate me with heat
I vanish from this earth
I come back to you
When you really need me

When I come back
I soothe you with coolness
Rain you with happiness
Bring in peace and growth

I am a flowing river
Don't try to stop me
Try stopping me
I am just unstoppable!!

Milton lake thru my eyes

I sit there by the lake
At the early morning hours
Watching reflections of
Trees, houses and light

Lake is still n undisturbed.
She has calmed down from the
Turbulence of the wind, fishes n ducks

She has buried down her feelings
Deep down within
Light wind blurs the reflection
Reflecting the past

There is no sadness, no anxiety
No crying, no wining
Just the stillness,
And the unshakable faith..

Night has to last
Day has to creep in..
Sun to rise
And again lake to shine.

Sleeplessness

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Turning & tossing
But no sleep at nights

I try to chase him
But he runs away
I try to ooze into him
He slips away!

Sleepless night
Sleepless night!

He is so bloody sleepy
Does not embrace me
He is so stubborn
Not following me

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights

I need you so badly
I want you so madly
Oh my Sleep Prince
Come embrace me!

Am sick and tired
Without your company
Have mercy on me
Come embrace me!

Sleepless nights
Sleepless nights
Turning & tossing
But no sleep at nights

Waiting for you
O my Sleep Prince
Come embrace me
And put me to sleep..
Put me to sleep..

Last one year Xperience!

I was in pursuit of love, happiness and peace whole lot of last year. People and situations have intrigued me my purpose of life like never before. In this pursuit, I never found what ever I was looking for. But hell Lotta an experience and realization! Here is the list I can think of.

1. If you deserve something, eventually it will reach you. Don't chase anything or anyone.
2. Life is harder for people who follow morals.
3. Expectation - kills you.
4. There is factually not much difference between yesterday and today, last week and this week, last year and this year. But it is your mind, which actually makes the difference!
5. Peace is within you. The more you understand yourself, more peaceful you are.
6. Understand the limitations of your loved ones. Support them in such a way that they never feel limited!
7. Use your relationships as strength and not as weakness.
8.  Learn to forgive - yourself and others. It makes you feel lighter.
9. Value people who give their time, love and care.
10. Life is not a race. Don't run or run away. Experience the life!
11. Enjoy what you already have.
12. Love life and live life to fullest.

Back to December

We are back to December
and another year goes by here!

I ask myself
what did I accomplish?
I ask myself
What did I achieve
in last one year..

May be I earned
few pennies more
May be I visited
few places more

May be I got
an award or two
May be I cleared
checklist of shopping todo

We are back to December
and another year goes by here!

I ask myself
did I love my people more
I ask myself
did I help my people more

I question whether
I was there when they needed me?
I question whether
I was dependable?

I ponder,
did I hurt anyone?
I wonder
whether I apologized for hurting

We are back to December
and another year goes by here!

I ask myself..
I ask yourself..
What did we do?
What did we do?